Hey guys, it's Friday night, 9:58 P.M, and I am sitting on my couch getting ready for bed. I just kind of wanted to brag about my dedication here haha, everyone is out enjoying the start of their weekend and I am sitting here MySpacing, playing guitar, and watching TV. I really cannot wait until it is the Monday after X, not for the fact of getting to party or get into trouble, but I feel like I just need to breathe. Every year I really hate July because it's the most exhausting month of the year for me, not just physically but mentally as well. I have been having the most difficult time sleeping at night, I constantly wake up at 4-5 A.M. and once I wake up I start thinking about everything and it worries me and then I don't go back to sleep. Today was the first day I took off from riding in over a week and I was still up early as heck worrying. I know this all sounds like nonsense and trust me it feels like nonsense, but for some reason X games just puts that kind of pressure on us. I had a rough year last year and this year hasn't started off much better so I keep thinking in my head if I don't do something at X I could be on my way out in this sport and that's for sure not what I want. I want more than anything to be back at the front of the pack in FMX, but it's not going to come easy!! Tomorrow I am hitting the track again to get some more practice for Speed and Style and then I am going to take Sunday off, but Monday comes my last full week of practice so I'm hoping to make the most of it!! Hope all you guys enjoy your weekend, I look forward to hopefully having a good blog for you guys next week, maybe I can learn something for once!!!
